Tuesday, July 24, 2007

More Waiting!!

This waiting is miserable for both of us, but we're trying to stay busy. It's a catch 22 bc we wanna know, but are scared to find out at the same time. This is the post I wrote last time we were in the dreaded wait time and it says it best so here you go...we feel the same way times 100 this time!!

The waiting game continues, but I'm doing ok with it. It may sound funny, but I'm SO scared to find out the results of the pg test, that I want to put it off as long as possible. I'm SO terrified that it'll be a negative test result that I'm willing to wait as long as possible. I dont want to know if it's negative. Of course I want to know if it is positive, but when I don't know, I still have hope that I can hold onto with every fiber in my body!!!! It's like I only want to know the results if we are indeed pg so we can celebrate like crazy, but the fear of negative test makes it ok to wait bc I still have hope. Hope is a good feeling!! Does that make any sense?

My mom sent me this quote and I love it and try to live it everyday! Some days are harder than others!!!!!

Quote for the week:
I'm not happy, I'm cheerful. There's a difference.
A happy person has no cares at all. A cheerful person
has cares but has learned how to deal with them.
BEVERLY SILLS
Opera Singer

5 comments:

Amy R said...

Thats such a nice quote; I'm going to have to remember that one. I keep saying in my head the quote I was reading in the news regarding what Tammy Faye Baker used to say 'When life hands you lemons, make lemonade'.

catherine said...

That quote is beautiful.

I think you must be very close to your beta and I wanted to wish you peace as you await the results! I hope you'll only hear good news.

Anonymous said...

That is a great and Very true quote. I was just reading about Beverly Sill's life since she recenly passed away. Praying for the best test results! Donna

linda said...

One thing my doctor recommended to do is to start POAS immediately after transfer. You can watch the HCG trigger disappear and watch for a new line to appear. That way the waiting is less intense. He recommends it to patients with RSA so that they can tell if they're getting early implantation failure. I'm going to do it so I don't have to wait the whole 2w. I'm impatient!

I hope you get some good news in the news few days!! Hope is the only thing any of us have going thru this IVF business and I hope you hold onto yours with both hands!!

anna said...

That's exactly how I feel right now in the 2ww! You've captured it ever so eloquently. If we could only hold onto that hope so that it ushers us to our babies! Good luck...I'll be thinkin of you!