Wednesday, February 28, 2007

What's Next?

Look at this adorable picture we saw hanging in the doctor office...I had to take a picture and post it! Can you find the baby??

U/s proved to everyone what we already knew. I do indeed have a "blighted ovum" where the baby stopped growing, but the sac continued to grow thinking it was still supporting a viable pregnancy. I haven't had any spotting or cramping because my body still thinks its pregnant. I'll start the m/c drugs tonight and continue taking them 2x a day until I have cramping and bleeding. The drugs have some strong side effects like diarrhea, nausea, headaches, vomiting, stomach pain, etc, but hopefully it wont be too bad for me. I have a pretty high tolerance for medicine so I'm hoping the same will ring true for this drug. I read online that depression is a side effect of this drug, but it wasn't in the leaflet so that's encouraging!!! Doc says the drugs usually work, but if they don't, then we'll go back to the doctor to see the next step, but I'm confident that they'll work. I hope they do.
It'd be nice to have this over and move on to feeling normal again and stop dragging this out. My friend Kelle had a good analogy when she said it's a like when someone dies, you want to have the funeral right away, but the time in between the actual death and the funeral can be so heartwrenching bc you want that closure of the funeral to grieve and move on the best you can. I guess the funeral will be when the cramping/bleeding stops which should be by the end of this week or early next week. Then I'll wait for a next normal cycle (AF) to begin which will be in 4-6 weeks.
Friends and family have been so supportive with cards, emails, phone calls, homemade dinners, gift cards to restaurants that have really helped us feel better and so loved and supported!! I said the other day that we feel more loved through all this than we did on our wedding day just to give you a taste of how special and uplifted we feel by everyone's undying support and deep love given to us both!! We are so blessed and will be stronger because of all of this! David and I are holding onto each other tighter than ever and know we have what it takes to see this to the end where we'll be holding our precious children in our arms and appreciate them that much more! Through this tradgedy, we feel more blessed and loved than we ever have! This is not the end. It's just a bump in the road of life, but we have our seatbelts securely fastened and are in the car together with lots of people in the backseat so we don't get lonely on this long road trip! We love you and thank you from the bottom of our hearts!

1 comment:

Jessica said...

I will be saying many prayers...I know you are probably VERY ready for this all to be over with. Some hope though for you...I got pregnant with Eli just 2 months after my m/c...non-medicated! I pray every night that the same will happen for you! Luv you!