Next Step...

I had bloodwork today and will get results tomorrow. I'll probably start the miscarriage meds tomorrow assuming my #'s drop like they should - it will probably be all out of me by the end of the week - what a rollercoaster! My emotions are up and down like a bipolar patient!! I feel like I'm walking around in a fog and I have this heavy weight constantly in my heart. I know it won't be there forever. I know it could be worse. I know I have a lot to be thankful for...I keep focusing on that. It's like an inner mantra I keep repeating to myself all day long. I can't wait to feel normal again!! I can't wait to feel the peace and joy we felt when we were pg and all this weight on our shoulders disappeared. I know it'll happen again!

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I've found music (especially country music) to be very therapeutic for me during this time. My friend Janet Boe gave me the 'Little Big Town' CD which had this gem of a song on it and is incredible!! I wish I could copy and paste the song on here bc the lyrics are great, but it's the song as a whole that is amazing!!!

Little Big Town
Lyrics for Song: Lost

Don't know who I am
Staring at a million broken pieces here
I don't know where I stand
While I'm still, the world goes round
so free so cavalier
Aimlessly I wander,
like a drifter on a narrow winding road
I've got plenty of direction
But I don't know where to go

I'm so lost without you
I'm so lost without you Baby,
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself
I'm so lost without you Baby,
I'm so lost without you
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself

No it don't seem right
This canyon of lonely lying in our bed
Lord how I've cried a waterfall of tears
Until my eyes turn red
Ever since you left me
It's been like a bullet through my heart
And I know I should move on
But I don't know where to start

I'm so lost without you
I'm so lost without youBaby,
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself
I'm so lost without you Baby,
I'm so lost without you
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself

Ever since you left me
It's been like a bullet through my heart
And I know I should move on
But I don't know where to start
I'm so lost without you
I'm so lost without you Baby,
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself

I'm so lost without you

I'm so lost Baby,
I'm so lost without you
That I can't find myself