Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Seeing is Believing...

One thing that got me through the difficult years of trying to conceive was visualizing what it would be like to have a baby and be a family. Some days I couldn't visualize it as clearly as other days, but some days, (on my good days), it was crystal clear, where I could see the nursery from downstairs, hear him/her babbling in the backseat of the car, smell his/her sweet skin in clothes I bought for the baby to be and imagine David holding our baby. For a nanosecond, it was real!



I played out every scene, every scenario, picked out names, prayed like a nun, bought blankets and had to keep telling myself it would happen over and over. It was my mantra.



I didn't know how, I didn't know when, but I had to keep my faith and believe it would happen.



Visualizing was the only way to make it seem real and attainable.



I think I only visualized the first month or so with a baby because there have been THOUSANDS of scenes and scenarios I never played out in my mind. It may sound silly, but this is one of the thousand I never played out and I have to wipe my eyes in amazement



every.



single.



time...





(with sound)
video



Thank you Lily for opening up my love cup, turning on the hose full blast and flooding it over and over!



I never visualized your magic.



Life is Good!!

16 comments:

jen said...

i LOVE that video!
what a doll!

note to self ... start begging husband for a video camera. (any recommendations?)

Kelle said...

ADORABLE! Beautiful...love the part, almost to the end, where she literally pushes someone out of the way so she can walk past them. Walking is so much more beautiful with music and slow motion. We should have movies like that for all of our steps! Good job, movie-making mama!

DGMommy said...

WOW!!! Love the music montage! Beautiful!

She is such a walker now. Move over babyhood, onward to toddlerhood:) Such fun!

The Manrings said...

oh my goodness....i have a lump in my throat reading your beautiful words. the video with its music and magic is amazing. love her as a little walker, its just the best. what a proud moment for everyone. congrats! xo

jennygirl said...

Holy NOT prepared for that video!!

The black and white, the slow motion?? What the!!

Wiping teary eyes.

She IS magic!!!

I love her and you so much!!
xoxo
jc

Grandpa said...

Lily is a precious little girl and her eyes glisten with the love she has for you and David.

The more parents enjoy their children . . . the more they enjoy life itself . . . and with you and David . . . Lily is fulfilling yours!

Btw . . . Lily learning to walk opens up so many new things for her to explore . . . like pretty soon . . . perhaps I can show her how to get some peanut butter on a spoon!

Love Ya!
Dad & Grandpa
*************

Leah said...

That is awesome! It's hard to believe she's walking now!! Time goes by so quickly. She's so beautiful!! That video clip just made my day. I can go to bed now! Thanks!

Mary said...

The video montage was so happy, moving, and more. I truly run out of words. She is priceless, and your life is so full of love now. It was before, but there is a new dimension never imagined until experienced.

Love,
Mom

Meagan Harris said...

Beautiful video Kelly! Your posts always make me stop to appreciate Paige and Liv. It's easy to take it all for granted when you're exhausted!! Thanks for keeping it real for me.

Anna Ruth said...

What a perfect video to have to document the way Lily grows and changes everyday. I'm so happy that God blessed you with a healthy, sweet, and beautiful little girl.

Joanna De Beers said...

So sweet. I am speechless.

Cibele said...

Go baby go!!!!!!!!! thanks for sharing this adorable video.

Julie Frizzi said...

I don't know whether to laugh or cry...............

wylie said...

Seriously, I am not sure how you do it, but I felt like I was there! Lily is amazing, the slow motion, the black and white, the music, the giggles in the background from you, I LOVE it!

Heidi said...

omgoodness...you did amazing with that video!!!!
it made me want to cry and laugh...I'm with julie!!!

what a big girl. i remember when peyton started walking...i started putting her in dresses NONSTOP. i figured she could finally 'work' a dress!!!! so exciting!!!

dig this chick said...

oh so sweet. I am so so happy you have Lily and she has you. Perfect. Can't watch the video now cause my computer is all fucokta but soon!