Friday, October 15, 2010

settling in...

How in the world do I post on top of Jen's-beautiful-I-broke-into-my-sister's-house-post? I could leave it up there for weeks or months, but then my tens of readers might start to worry. Things are going great here with our little family of 4. We're all adjusting and getting to know this special little slice of heaven who was so beautifully placed into our arms and hearts on 10-10-10!

Side Note: Can I tell you how excited I am about his birthday? I get a flutter every time I have to fill out paperwork or a someone will ask me when he was born. It never gets old. What a fun thing for him too. And Lily got the cool date of 4-4-08 so I guess it's a gift to both of them. See? Now no one feels second fiddle. :)

I had some serious-need-some-xanax-full-blown-anxiety about delivering Grady after what happened with Lily. I think it was post traumatic stress coming back, but once I entered the hospital and met our friendly nurse Julie directed us to room 11, (hello doubles?) suddenly I had an inner peace come over me that everything was going to be okay. Until then it was fear vs faith and fear was winning by a landslide. But, once I got into my special gown Andrea gave me, faith was kicking some serious booty. Maybe David slipped the nurse $50 beans to put some xanax in my IV because all was good in the world and even better when he was placed in my arms with a wonderful apgar score! Victory all around. It was such a healing process filled with joy, relief and incredible gobs and gobs of gratitude.

and there were cheers for miles...

and Grady even got to meet his new friend Ella who Andrea gave birth to and was just a few doors down from us; we both had our struggles to have our babies and prayed like crazy for each other so to have our babies at the same time, just doors from each other was divine intervention at its finest. It felt like we were at summer camp, staying in the dorms, sneaking out to see each other. Grady weighed 7.11 and Ella was a wee 6.1 so it looks like he could eat her for dessert. What a cute pair.

and Lily meeting Grady for the first time? It was beautiful. I had butterflies all morning knowing she was on her way and missed her terribly. I felt like we just went through this huge life experience without her and wanted her to be a part of it.

I knew she was WELL taken care of though. I left 8 pages of typed notes about 'Lily Care 101' for very capable people to love on her while we were away. I knew it was over the top, but once I started writing about her, I just couldn't stop. It soothed my intense nesting I was going through too. But man o man, when we need help, the troops come pouring in in a big way. IN happy and sad times; they are there. In minutes. This was our driveway for most of the weekend while we were in the hospital. We had like 10 people watching one 2 year old filling up her love cup at every turn. It was such a calming feeling to know how loved she was while we were away.

I couldn't wait to see Lily for the first time. It was like we saw the Niagara Falls without her and now she was coming up to see the Falls too and hoped she fell in love just like we had. I felt like I was going to throw up from nerves, but as soon as she walked in, we hugged and kissed and my heart was throbbing as I hugged her trying to hide the tears and show her how excited I was to see her. I purposely didnt have Grady in my arms because I wanted our reunion to be all about us and after a little while I asked if she wanted to meet her brother as my voice was cracking so much I'm not even sure she knew what I said. Then she patted my tummy and said "mommy's tummy empty. where is he?" and I pointed to him in his hospital crib. I held my breath not knowing what she'd do next and after a little staring, she said "lily hold him" and all the butterflies flew out of my tummy and I knew everything was falling into place just like it should from those few little words. I was so proud of her and fell in love with her even more which I didn't think was possible. I seriously would jump in front of a truck for these 2 souls.

and somehow we were lucky enough to bring this little guy home in his new sailor outfit from Leah which was too big on him, but oh so cute! The love is so new and vulnerable; like someone stripped down my insides and they're all exposed. But in a pretty way; not a gory movie kind of way. :)

How did we win the lottery 2x?

Could we have the next Heisman Trophy winner?

I dont care what he does in life, I just want him to be happy and fulfilled. And know he is loved by so many.

and we were given this awesome responsibilty to show him that everyday. Someone upstairs is looking down on us helping us along the way.

and I can't get enough of seeing them together. Lily is learning all about him and figuring out how he fits into this world with her. She talks to him in this little voice where she's muttering and no one can understand her, but the 2 of them. My 2 little blondies - can't stand the cuteness.

She likes to sit under his play mat with him and calls it a tent. She takes our family love cup and fills up his heart multiple times per day. I can't handle it. No one warned me about this. Or maybe they did, but I couldn't grasp the concept.

I know she's looking forward to the day that Grady can sit at the art table with her and create masterpieces while fighting over the yellow crayon. I know I can't wait. Until then, baby will have to do.

I know he's only 5 days old (wow, that sounds young), but I feel like I already know him so well; mainly his sweet little heart that is so vulnerable in this world and I just want him to always filled up with love. And milk. :)

Oodles of thanks for all of the love surrounding our bundle of joy with calls, visits, texts, emails, presents, cards and excitement for us. It's amazing to feel so uplifted by so many.

life is good.


Jessica said...

He is just SO beautiful, Kelly!!! What a beautiful family you have...SO very blessed!!!! Sending lots of love to you all!! I wish I lived closer so I could come by for a visit!! :)

Rayna said...

Kelly, David, and Lily,
Welcome to the world Grady! I am so happy for your wonderful, beautiful family of 4. 4/4 and 10/10 will be forever two of the happiest days of your lives. I love you all so much!

Andrea said...

I am in tears!! Seeing the beautiful words about my little girl meeting your little guy for the first time just melted my heart. To share this journey with you has been a true blessing and it was SO much fun to text back and forth knowing we were just doors down from each other at the hospital. Ella and Grady will be wonderful friends...maybe more than that one day? LOL!! Love you SO much!!

Eva Marie said...

oh this is oh so beautiful! I am so happy for you and your family.. lily just looks like she adores him..
i wish I could go back to the newborn stage with my daughter and truly soak it all in again it just goes so darn fast

Justine H said...

Oh Kelly, im getting all teary after reading your post. I have been an 'online' friend at the beginning, before Lily's pregnancy. A couple of girls who tried for babies for so long, and now look at us - you have Lily and now Grady, and I have Lola and another on the way.

10/10/10 is so cool! I have friends who were married on that day. My little one will have something similar - scheduled 01/11/11!!!!

I cannot tell you how happy I am for you, David and Lily.


Jennifer said...

Words escape me...because there are none to describe the peace and joy I feel when I think about Lily and Grady.

a little over 3 short years ago we hoped and prayed for such blessings.

and now they are, breathing, loving, amazing little souls.


I love you!!

Martina said...

Congratulations on your beautiful family. YOu are blessed in so many ways and I'm very happy for all of you. The way you write my eyes fill with tears every time. Enjoy your beautiful angels. Can't wait to read more about them. Bless you all Martina from Arizona

lynne said...

God's promise to your arms. Those 2 little ones couldn't be luckier! I need to come visit!
Love you!

Maria said...

Kelly~consider me one of your tens of readers(that cracked me up)! You look absolutely beautiful & the pictures just get better & better. You are truly blessed with two amazing,healthy children & they seem totally blessed as well. Nothing better in life than a new baby, lots of love & family, family, family. Love to you all.

Rhonda said...

He's beautiful Congrats!!

Anna Ruth said...

I love that Lily can play right by his side and when she held him for the first time it looks like he is looking right at her. So happy for you.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Congratulations, Kelly! Welcome the world, Grady! You did get one really cool birthday!

Jennifer said...

Lump in my throat....
Beautiful post!

Julie Frizzi said...

Love the pic of the cars at your darned funny. The pic of the two miracle babies together is priceless. Love you all.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations on the arrival of Grady. The pictures are so beautiful. I come back everyday hoping to see more pics of the kids together. Will you be posting soon?